Matthew 6:34

"So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today. " Matthew 6:34

I tend to worry. About what? you may ask. Well pretty much anything. I think I get it from my dad. He's a big worry wart (where did that saying come from anyway? it's kinda gross). So now I'm worried about grades, getting projects and papers done on time. Making sure grades get to where they need to be to insure I will be here another year. Worrying about getting enough money raise so I can go on an amazing mission trip to Kenya this summer. Trying to decide how much I can actually work with all the other activities I want to help with and if I should work more and get more money than help out with the other things. Worry worry worry. And about what? Myself. I am such a truly selfish person. I'm so worried about this summer and next year, but it all has to do with me. My needs, my money, my future, MY plans. I have a hard time stopping and asking God His thoughts first. Praying about jobs or trips or camps before jumping in head first.

I get Bible verses sent to my e-mail everyday from Air1.com (Christian radio station based out of Seattle, WA) and the verse from Matthew was in my inbox this morning, just waiting for me to open it. "So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries". I love a verse a few lines up from this one, Matthew 6:26 "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?" He asks a legit question here. "Are you not much more valuable than they?" And we are. We don't deserve to be, but God holds us to a higher standard.

Worrying gets me no where and can, in most cases, make things worse. But it is so hard just to give it all to God and be like, "Here ya go! Let me know when You get things figured out." I want to fix things myself. So I worry about how that can be done. God can do it. He can fix it. And from what I gather, He's pretty good at it too. Giving it up and releasing it to Him sounds impossible to me right now. But to quote a movie I saw way to much of in high school staring Whitney Houston and Brandy, "impossible things are happening everyday". So where do I start? Saying you'll give all your worries to God and actually doing it are two totally different things. I really have nothing to lose, except maybe a few worry lines.

my light

Have you ever noticed that flowers go toward the sun? You know bend, twist, and turn to reach the source of its happiness. Well I assume sun makes flowers happy, they don't readily bloom in the darkness. And not only flowers, but trees, birds, bees, all living things are affected by the light.

We need to be like flowers. I need to be like the tulips on my window sill, reaching and bending to the source of my happiness. Physically moving myself, my whole self to face the source of my light, my God.

I so often like to hide in the dark. Darkness offers cover. It can hide all of your flaws, making everything equal, everything the same in the blackness. It gives the illusion of making things beautiful. Think of a city. During the day there is nothing special about it. Buildings cramped up next to each other, the same color palate moving through out the city. But then night falls and things change. What was once a boring, Plain Jane city as turned into a shinning star. Lights from in and outside of the buildings illuminate the windows making each one a unique little star. The lights mixing with the darkness cover the blemishes of the city and highlight it's strengths. And then the morning comes and erases all the images you thought you had of the city. Showing you all the ugly and unsightly parts you tried to forget in midst of the dark.

But the light...oh the light bring life with it. Nothing good or worth while prospers in the night. Light shows us who we really are, it shows us who we can be all the time with out the illusion of the darkness.

So my goal this week is to be the light. To shine so brightly that the world has no choice but to look. I'll need a little help to keep it bright, but the more of us that shine together the brighter and more brilliant our light becomes.

name change

I've been thinking about this for a while and I've come to the decision that.......(drum roll)........ I'm changing the name of my blog. I've never really liked the name, the first or the second one and I'm ready to make the change.

The first, "no time to close my eyes" was a reference to the fact that I couldn't sleep last semester (and maybe a slight reference to twilight, but that's beside the point) and then "blueberry pop-tarts" comes from the simple fact that I LOVE blueberry pop-tarts. But I have a feeling this is just another craze. One of those things where I get a craving for something, eat it/read it/watch it/etc. to the point where I question the reason for my cravings. Both titles represent passing fads in my life. And yes, this is just a blog but I want to accurately represent myself here. Thus, the need for a name change.

So, what's the new name? you ask. "starlight, starr bright" catch, huh?! I really like this new one. I hope you will too and if ya want, I can explain the reason for it but I'd rather have you guess. Hope you like it!